the moment.....blink and you miss it

in these past few weeks while it has just been me and the gorgeous Miss Noodle at home I have tried hard to stay in the moment...........by that I mean that I have tried not to think of the past or the future, eg, I wish I had done that, or I could have made a better job of that, or I have loads of washing to do, or what shall I cook for dinner (well, ok, maybe I have thought that one a few times) but you get the idea, I have learned how long minutes actually take to spend if you spend them wisely. I read somewhere (?) once that time is like money, easy to spend but important to make the right choices with - or something like that - and this is so true. While I have not acomplished this any where near as much as I would have liked to have I have definately been taking more time just to be with my girlie, just to watch her and notice the small nuances about her that make her unique. I have also been there when she started to talk, really talk, she said her first four word sentence the other day - where is da spoon? whilst reaching up and rooting about in our cutlery drawer! I could so easily have missed that. I have so loved being just me and her, it is a journey that I wish I could continue, but, that not being an option for me at the moment, in my usual way I found a solution to the problem of me not wanting to do my job and have to leave her with a minder, we possibly have two small boys coming to live with us tomorrow!! Fostering! our very small experience of this has taught us that we can do it, that it can be challening (to the extreem) funny, very sad, hard, difficult and downright awful, but somehow really worthwile. So, we await a decision by a judge tomorrow to see if they arrive here or not. We are ready.....ish, Miss Noodle is in for a mighty shock, I have asked her if she would like two small boys to come and stay here (not a good idea) which was met with a resounding NO, I then resorted to speaking about them occasionally, which has gone down slightly better, however, I looked after step grandaughter for the day last week and Miss N spent most of it telling R that they are her toys and pushing her off the chairs! Think I may be in for a bit of a hard time! As I go off now to sleep in our big shared bed, I thank the Lord that she is my baby and I have the opportunity to give her round the clock care, that he gave me an inventive brain that is so good at problem solving and wonder what tomorrow has in store for our little (and the not so little elements of) family.